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1. Riverfront (Like Rain, Visitor Center, Drone)
[Like Rain]
Smells like rain when the blood comes out
Waste away even when you leave the house
Better days, passed this town
Down the road they paint a house

[Visitor Center]
He's writing deformed poetry
I hear an echo from the back
She loves my mother and my father
They don't love each other back
She asks where I'm headed off to
T say I'm staying here and now
She draws comparisons
Send her off agreeing all around

they really thought this was a visitor center
a place like this should come to have a point
where we can divulge how to rip and tear and bite

who would ever drive and park on this road
when walking could substitute fine
who would ever paint in vibrant colors
when they make up such dishonest designs

can you believe the river's safe to swim in
it wasn't safe when we were young
Now my body’s ripe as trampled fruit
Let the flood bleed through the night

i am a tourist in this town i move like lava
i will burn everything down you can't stop it
i will take your pretty buildings and paint them white with ash
i will take your little streets and refuse to give them back

That’s not really true though
I have my whole life ahead of me
I have my whole life to pass away
And next time i wake up in a dream i’ll know it
I’ll feel it from the abnormality
The disconnect of my body
I would've made for a beautiful suicide
But in the end i’d be an ugly death
And ugliness is not ugliness
Death is not a cold place
And neither is life
We are surrounded by ourselves
Snared in the middle
I am exonerated by living
When i am exonerated from living
I will be the same
I am more in everything
I am more in everything
I am all myself

[Drone]

2. Across the Sky (version)
I need to be spread across the radio waves in the sky
So that when you tune your shortwave you can hear me one frequency at a time
I know it sounds silly but it’s just what I need
Freedom from corporea and continuity
i need to be spread throughout the liquor in your spine
And the ambrosia licking away at your mind
I know it sounds silly but it’s just what I need
Freedom from corporea and continuity

3. Mystery Fades Quiet & Sawkill
[Mystery Fades Quiet]
Oh god, the neighbor’s at it again
So long ago, when he caught you jumping the fence
Broke your heart when he switched up the narrative
But you survived it all, nothing’s all that different
The dogs are barking up against the quiet night
They want to know why the yellow house is so damn loud

They’ll never get their answer
You know that much is true
But it’ll break their heart
When the mystery fades out so quiet

I often miss the dark nights of my youth
Now my night vision’s gotten too good
[Sawkill]
That was long before doing 60 on sawkill
Fucked around and found out just like he wanted
And you weren’t kidding about all those medications
Two birds with one stone as we preview patience

Walking round the same town is too much lately
Lying in the gravel, i read a book to save me
Looking back nostalgic, trying to course correct
Kill anything that moves, any thought in your head
Yeah, yeah, yeah

4. In Twilight Ideas
Beautiful sunset captured in an ugly location
I’m a beautiful idea in an ugly body
Belladonna, off to the secondary station
I’m a body tricked into self sabotage

I need to shoot a rifle
I need to break my legs
Oh to feel the pressure
Against my shoulder blades

If the flower represents sex
if the body represents death
If the flower represents death
The body is representative

I don’t feel represented
(Beautiful sunset captured in an ugly location
I don’t feel represented
I’m a beautiful idea in an ugly body
I don’t feel represented
Belladonna, off to the secondary station
I don’t feel represented
I’m a body tricked into self sabotage)

5. The Plan
Step up to their face
And lie about the plan
i’ve given up the ghost
As a victim of gravity

I’ve made my decision
I’m a switch that kills the signal
North and South collide
But East and West go on

6. Ghosts' Haze & Drone [with Askee Art]
[Ghosts' Haze]
I was the blue light blinking down the road
Keeping time with the whirring drone
I stare you down with my one bad eye-
Hacking up a lung

In dreams we visit each other in the old house
As a last ditch rendezvous
I flutter in and out like a blindness
I’m an idea when i’m with you

[Drone]

7. Against Opacity
I was a girl fron a northwestern state
I was a seabird in the snow
In the war on invisibility
We thrashed at the lamp posts

I was an idea whose wild beginnings died out fast
I was a relic in repose
Someone got injured in their opacity
I never learned much more

8. Dead Acres
“I need you now”
The whistling wild
The utter violence when he spoke
“I need you now”
In all the winter spirals
The sacrificial idols by your bed

And nothing more in reach right now

“I need you now”
The eidolon of your past
Your hanging heart at half mast in the snow
“I need you now”
And in the failed attempts
The futile self reflections i hold you close

And nothing more in reach this time
The memories: like endless strata
Gradually decline

Dead acres
We walk now on invisible stilts
Stranded in a neighboring town
Sunset while the tree line wilts

Tonight we
Are getting drunk in the woods
December frailty in the air
Dnd after dark we’ll wish we could-
Have found a way
Out of this life
Where nobody gets hurt
And nobody dies

9. Drone & Cut Up
[Drone]

[Cut Up]
A Harley left about 20 minutes ago
Back now though,and shit fell apart
"You know there used to be a little creek
Radio frequencies, pins and needles on one million phanton limbs,
White light barking behind the house" he said,
Growing out of acelestial bodies.
Any number of hearts stopped
We are so hopelessly deep in time, aren't we?
Slow return and I pull back tot he house,
Path of a creek that didn't exist to me, didn't yet.
I flew up around spirals, natural footpath to heaven,
I caught a deep wind-

10. Starlocked (Horsecutter, I've Gone Home)
[Horsecutter]
(The world will be my winter jacket)
you want to see my body open
you'll have to tear me limb from limb

and you can dress to impress
or you can bleed yourself
baren of all ideas
until there's nothing left

I’ll set my table but i won’t sit down

Who dreams so dearly about “the old house?”
A place no person ever grew up in
And wakes up missing all the nooks and crannies
Unexplored, uninspired

I’ll never miss you
Until the lead paint chips from my breast
I’ll never wish that upon you
I’ll try my best

I’ll visit your grave
Spend countless days exploring in vain
I try not to think about it
I let the dead dogs lay

Cause when i dress to impress
I only hurt myself
I am unfinished, a futile grasp at self
But I’ll visit your grave if you give me directions

Who dreams so dearly about “the old house?”
A place so empty and unadorned
Still i wake in the living room
And under thick blankets i am warm

I’ll never miss you
Until the lead paint chips from my breast
I’ll never wish that upon you
I’ll try my best

At the riverfront I fall apart, star locked, might the sky listen?
Will I destroy this town in loving memory?
Like when the mountain collapsed, a disaster, how boundless
But I don’t care about being selfish anymore
Let history be selective in repetition
Like a roundabout
I am the runner in the roundabout
I am the impending accident
Cut me down while I run
Run me down as I am: star locked
I am too impatient to live with myself
But I wish to level this place with such surgical precision
That I leave the parts of me I’ve entangled within everything
Untouched, and star locked
I am so hopelessly deep in time
So hopelessly deep in time

[I've Gone Home]
(The world will be my winter jacket)

BONUS TRACK: FireTower
There’s a fire downhill from here
You can tell from the smokey air
So I spider up the fire tower
With a basket in my hand

There’s fanfare at the coastal body
While he lays like a beached whale
And they’re celebrating his life and accomplishments
Forgetting that he’s even there

And Gulliver washed up on an island to small for him
I entered a world too big for me
Dog in a business district, doesn’t understand
What he’s supposed to be

I built myself a terrible vessel
To sail a violent sea
I built it strong and wretched
But the water dried up waiting for me

BONUS TRACK: 'Loop Based'
like laying on an evening road
the carpet after the store's closed
rip the seams now, the sinew

BONUS TRACK: Endless Strata/Edgar Atkins
[Endless Strata]

[Edgar Atkins]
Edgar Atkins died last evening
In his hotel bathroom had a seizure
Hampton inn, Kingston NY
He was never a local figure
Never figured out what he needed
But he was alive before the sun rose

He had checked in unexpectedly
Found a vacant room, paid for his key
Walked down the hall, watching his back
Had a runner’s high and comedown
Locked his rented room up like a compound
That afternoon he’d done something bad

They were on his tail he could sense it
Besides a pocket knife he was defenseless
Waiting on the bed like a sitting duck
At 4:00 in the morning
He hadn’t slept, he had the feeling
That the walls would buckle in and take him out

Edgar Atkins died last evening
He was a piece of shit for what he did
And in some sick twist of fate he paid the price
The fuzz won’t find him till tomorrow
The door blocked by a bedside table
But it won’t be long before they realize who he is

You drove drunken past a school bus stopped
Got real fuckin lucky nobody called the cops
But your little habit you could never kick
Didn't take much longer to do you in
And the other shoe dropped as you swerved
Into the other lane, across the hogchoker curb
When you rounded the corner, out like a light
What did you expect, what did you expect

It was a hit and run and the driver died
They wrapped a telephone pole on the passenger side
They just wanted to get home and it broke their heart
You ruined it all, your ruined it all
You didn’t sober up fast enough
If you did you’d not have started that goddamn truck
When you finally realized your mistake
you weren’t regretful, You were scared

and not to take the moral high ground
but good people don’t go around doing what you did
Edgar atkins