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1. Organ Song
One last lunge towards the rest of my life
I wanna go back towards a simpler time
One last punch before they knock out the lights
I wanna go to a simpler time and take you with me

2. I Was a Watchtower/Overgrown
[I Was a Watchtower]
You’ll pick up the pieces won’t you
All that was blurry is distinct now
I should have never stuck around
My continuity’s all unfound

You’ll reuse the fabric won’t you
All that was certain only serves now to confuse
I wanna get lost on my own
So what if the changes fit her mold
I’m scared now only to be illegitimate

And if I escape from this cave
Will you think less of my face
Will you?

[Overgrown]
The rest of your life, in search of forever
With a rifle at your side you walk down into the meadow
Throw the bottle round with the cork still unscrewed
Campfire on the mountain, sunset shining over you
Found footage of window panes we’ve seen before
Broken glass from stones, scars from years outdoors
We’re stuck together in the wastes away from home
Empty and endless place but never walked alone

A dwindling supply of rope in your backpack
As we wander down these hills, reclaiming every setback
Following the rails once bustling and new
I wanna break the boundaries, cross that field with you

I couldn’t tell how well
My voice
Breaches through the trees
I can only hope
That you
That you can hear me

Every second glance always hides its intention
With a compass as your guide, you ease your defenses
Laying on the ground, silent forest sprawling view
I wanna break the boundaries, cross that field with you

The rest of our lives, in search of forever
With a rifle at your side you walk down into the meadow
Throw the bottle round with the cork still unscrewed
Campfire on the mountain, sunset shining over you
Found footage of window panes we’ve seen before
Broken glass from stones, scars from years outdoors
We’re stuck together in the wastes away from home
Empty and endless place but never walked alone

Empty and endless place forever overgrown

3. You Raze the Sky
[You Bless the Ground]
Oh how you raze the sky
En route to coronation
Your rust belt fortune flies
All into sewage street sides

En route to coronation

And how we thought the world would end
If you didn’t make your entrance
Yet your factory filling skew
Every second I stare at you

En route to coronation

[You Raze the Sky]
Vanishing ink signature written in acid rain
Iron walls oxidized, wilted and warped in shame
Walks abandoned run for miles
Not when i walk with you
I’ll sit as you break stasis
As each factory’s framework skews
City fixtures crumbling under hundred mile wind
Forests fighting back by force
I take shelter in your limbs
Slashed apart, raze the sky
Healing scars, raze the sky

3. Illegal Firework
Storming circles, filaments
Piled snow, electric and undressed
Stranded rescued and returned
Exhausting mirrored candles slowly burn
Hidden deep away
Never go away
Kill your time on a rabbit’s eye
Static electricity

In the evening I am liberated
In silence and unmovingness
My beating heart preoccupied
Tethered and internalized
A candle in a jar in a room
My beating heart preoccupied
Tethered and internalized
Glowing out into the wild

Draining water, freezing cold
Power lines hanging weighted low
Huddled up and hidden down
Submerged in silent cold and scattered round
Hidden deep away
Never give away
Kill your time on a rabbit’s eye
Static electricity

In the evening I am liberated
In silence and unmovingness
My beating heart preoccupied
Tethered and internalized
Holding only one at a time
My beating heart preoccupied
Tethered and internalized
Running off into the wild

Isolated, understorm
Obstructed gaze, uncertain of your form
Sprawling wide and stealing space
I crumble softly, quiet in your wake
And I feel so left behind the world looks down on me from every side
They test for tumors on rabbits like you
And under electric skies I wrap the spool

In the silence I am captivated
By never ending static states
beating hearts preoccupied
tethered to a single line
The direction we're headed in now
Listening and passing time
In our travels unified
The fact there’s no turning around

So where to go?

Always the first word out of my mouth
An intonation that speaks to your doubt
I’m going up into the night sky
Too late to stop me, too futile to try

Fixed to a flaming point in the clouds
A roman candle in an emperor’s crown
Just like a beacon up in the air
In the burning middle of nowhere

And in a haze I’ll begin to rise
Levitating you’ll wave me goodbye
All out perfection until I’m gone
I’ll run away from you, take off to the stars

King of the skyline, fill you with joy
Lifting the peril out of your voice now
Bursting asunder in simple time
A celebration void of reason or rhyme

I can’t return from the volley I've joined
Or escape the trail I've been tryna avoid
I cross the sky on an illegal firework
And all its been is a pyrrhic rebirth

And as I tear through every sense
I’ll captivate you and ease each defense
Just when I'm under the miles of your skin
I’ll liberate myself leave the stars singed

4. Impermanance (Typewriting)
I wish I could speak on my own life
A document for the hell of it
If only I could write things down
On a typewriter that can circumvent the permanence of ink
I know I can’t find the words anyway
It’s too hard to empathize with my past self
When I’m a different person than i was yesteryear, oh well

How I long for continuity, how i long to hide what i can’t help

I wanna weigh myself down
Unsure if I’d drown
If rocks can’t sink this ship
I’m your iceberg sweet titanic

I want to reassemble all the broken parts
I want to know the part of me that let them scatter round
I want to vilify myself for what I’m unsure of
Any sense of connection to the past/future/present tenses

Rip the roots of confinement from the ground
Make my way through the woods dark and cold
Then maybe I could hold
(the past/future/present, the past/future/present)

6. As You Break Stasis
I'll sit as you break stasis
In the turquoise water wake
Rust striking down refracted
In the water, angled waste

7. Aguirre

8. Subway Stanchion
I hate the city
Human rat kings tied in knots
For your consideration
I’ll keep wasting
Time in labyrinthian lots
It’s just a detour
Through the most crowded place on earth
I can’t stand the public
And the smell just makes it worse

But we have a place to be
And I’ll hold you silently

Subway Stanchion
Get me to my destination
You’ll always have someone to lean on
Subway Stanchion
Get me to my destination
You’ll always have me to lean on

And at the exact moment we brake
Before inertia pulls you away
Before you step into the street again
And until you mind the gap

I’ll always be here to hold
If the floor is shaky or full
If the seats are crowded with people
Whenever you need

9. Under Powerlines
Helicopters flying around
Rumor says it's a cop out
Nowhere I would rather be
Under powerlines, cross country

10. Scattered All Over
[Scattered All Over]
papers scattered all around my room
And a letter opened and exhumed
Frantically ripped apart at the seams
In attempts to catch the tail end of a dream

But in the trash lain across my floor
Mostly miscellaneous or mail fodder
I lifted up the story left
By the pages that I’d unthinkingly kept

One day all the loose ends will be gone
And I'll have nothing to hide from
Like a pop up book slowly opening
I’ll see myself between each page

And as i read the timeline of my life
I grew further disconnected further out of sight
I began to recollect upon my childhood
I began to occupy what I never understood

Every unfinished fiction I would make
All of the normalties that never took place
Most of the nothings I never went through
All the every-things I still have yet to lose

One day all the loose ends will be gone
And I'll have nothing to hide from
Like a pair of jaws closing down
Clenching me inside it’s cage

[Sunward Current]
Now just the sunset
Rusted recollections
I hear the tail of your breath
It’s hollow when you’re not here
Alone and so formless
erase the rain
So far away
Now just the sunset

Hollow when you’re not here
So bring me close
Scattered across the sky
But this stasis is my own

Up into the country
Some hidden road
In the ivy and silence
All overgrown
Scattered across the sky
But this stasis is my own

Now just the sunset
Rusted recollections
I hear the tail of your breath
It’s hollow when you’re not here
Alone and so formless
erase the rain
So far away
Now just the sunset

Now just the sunset
Rust forming in stasis
avoid the trail to the summit
It’s hollow when you’re not here
So warm and electric
All hidden deep
Don’t go away
Now just the sunset

[Still Life with Woodpecker]
Under electric skies I am the spool
Now spilling out from inside my room
I’m folding maps into more idealistic locations

yesterday I tied my shoes
my bicycle back tire wouldn’t move
I took my bag and circled the neighborhood
everything is a part of it
it’s never too late to have a happy childhood

11. Mechanical Dog: Torn Apart for Scrap Metal and Memories
My eyes aren’t what they used to be
But i see you in the crowd now distantly
I used to look forward to rainy days
Burned homes in the Hudson valley

So we are making ourselves into a wall
I’m bound to be vandalized, bodies, bathroom stalls
With the dryer broken all summer long
I resort to the line because it’s all i got

My first flu shot after turning 18
I never knew I'd been living so dangerously
Gave me a sticker put it on my dresser side
Over a mantra, now out of its time

I have been brainwashed and i will be again
And that’s the hard truth, the one they put in your head
I have been lied to, I'm a mechanical dog
Off to the landfill, salvage rescue or rot

All i want is to know myself
With the guesswork done by someone else
I’ll walk softly through the forest trees
I’ll be what you want I'll be anything

I abandon this harbor and i sail far
My slim view of the river set to life on mars
The daily bus ride is starting to depress me
Like a played out three chord melody

I remember the set piece, your father’s space
Taxidermy so old just an alternate decay
In the mud of what you wanted to create
Spinning cycles of a life so commonplace

If everything’s the same I'll take what i can get
I could look around I could make new friends
But giving up on friendship is not for me
Burned homes in the Hudson valley

And I've been abandoned by the people i trust
But it won’t happen again, now i know i am loved
I can be rebuilt as a mechanical dog
Off to a new home, the past is dead and gone

All i want is to know myself
With the guesswork done by someone else
I’ll walk softly through the forest trees
I’ll be what you want I'll be anything

Bonus Track: Limestone
First day on the job he worked in limestone
On his thirty sit and stare at endless strata below
Had a working wife and fortune at home
But it wouldn't last him all his life if he settled down

Bonus Track: Big Silence/I Will Find You in the Night/Tunnel Coda
[Big Silence]
I Will Find You In The Night (Not a star in the sky)

It was a satellite
Watching down and scanning over
It was skimming the last page of a book
Just before the night passed me by

And all over at the end of the tree line
Spotlight over fields and under stretching clouds
All spiraled inwards
And everlasting as I felt the soil lighting up

I’ll have a dream in the dining room
With vines crawling through the windows
Finally landing at my feet
And I will wander the empty land
With a painting of the open sky
And an eye at my back
It was an aftermath
Wiping out the noise
Like shutting sharply at the end
Just before you say goodnight

[I Will Find You in the Night]
I will find you
You’ll never be encaged
And I will find you
With forests ‘round your face
And I will find you alone and surrounded
And I will find you nonetheless alive and well
And I will find you
I will find you
I will find you
I will find you again
I will find you
I will find you
I will find you again

I will find you

[Tunnel Coda]
If you drive long enough
You’re bound to find a tunnel
If you hide there long enough
Someone is bound to find you

But it may be a long time
In the dark and cold
And you wouldn’t want a tunnel
To be humanity’s last stronghold

But in the pouring rain you’ve got a place to stay
You’ve got a body still and you can stow away
And in the echoes find the path to another life
Cause you’re bound to start anew anyways

Bonus Track: Battery Capo

Bonus Track: Theory One

Bonus Track: Overcoming an Autumnal Cycle
God damn the darkness
And the fog i once used as a curtain
The truth that i knew that i hid that i knew
And i used to hide from my friends

But now there will be no more darkness
And deer cross the street right beside me
And deer cower mildly in the porchlight
And friends fly away to the cost

And maybe i long for the springtime
The springtime i needed before
Autumn has always been difficult
The pattern has always torn
(Ever Upward)

God damn the silence
And the air i had to exist in
Compressing and clotting around me
And i waved goodbye to my friends

And now there may be no more harbor
And i do not cross the street mindlessly
But in some way i’m still alone
My friends are all so far away

There will no longer be hallways
The hallways will never be yours
And i will escape from impatience
And finally i can move forward
(Ever Upward)

Bonus Track: Seabound/Roof Song
[Seabound]
I will never see you again
You are an otter lost at sea
You've now moved on and made your escape
Your familial waters have a familiar ache
And I will never see you again
Apart from pictures and zines
I wonder where you are three years later
Your head still shaved, are you lost at sea?
I wonder if you gave up
Or if you never tried
I wonder if I'll ever know the real story
And if you regressed under the weight

I don't know if I want to see you again
You have your ties I have mine
Maybe I'll never see you again
And only the past can be Intwined

[Roof Song]
Just another building who’s roof i’ll never climb
Wishing i had the bias of birds eye
Just another building i’ll never scale
I wish you well
Just another roof i can’t raise the sky from
Just another building making me feel dumb?
Feel like i haven’t even explored my own little world
Just another building whose roof i haven’t climbed
A building i might never see again, in due time
I wish you well